An old but new adventure

How many times have we made this same trip to Jasper? Once living here means that you know ever bend, every mountain marking, every rest stop and every animal hang out, yet once again it is a trip of newness. After years and years of struggling to get his brothers bike running, Blaine finally saved up enough to buy the motorbike of his dreams. He has always wanted a sport touring speed bike where the two of us could tour together. Of course life took it's course and with kids, responsibilities and finances it took a lot longer than planned but FINLLY! Here we are, on our first sport touring getaway. We started our trip off with lunch at our favorite hangout cafe in town. Once again Blaine performed special entertainment without knowing that he was being watched. Good laughs there started our journey. Taking a same trip on a bike gives you a new experience. You stop at little road side shops that you never took the time to even care about before. You notice flowers on the side of the road. The smell of fresh rain pending ahead awakes your senses. As we drove thought the rain, I couldn't help but be mesmerized as the rain dropplets spread apart on my visor yet I still felt warm and dry. The animals we drove by we're so close that we could reach out and touch them. The brave adults cliff jumping on the side of the road were close enough that we could stop for a second and cheer them on. With all of our mini stops we added an extra hour to our destination arrival but I am sure it made the difference in arriving without a numb behind. We are so thankful for amazing friends who lent us pants,gloves and boots for this adventure. It made all the difference in the world. Arriving around 7:30pm, we quickly checked into our quaint little double bed approved accommodation and headed to Earls for dinner. What better way to end our day than enjoying supper on the balcony. Well, a rowdy group showed up and when they started taking pictures of their privates that was our cue to move indoors. One super spicy dish later we were once again on the bike and headed out to sit by the fire with Blaine's parents. It was a great start to our weekend getaway. So now that Blaine has finished with the burning ring of fire we are off to find out what day 2 has in store for us.

My heart hurts

It's been awhile since I last posted.  I try to post the good and the bad but sometimes I get busy and am so wrapped up in the good things that I don't have time to blog.

Tonight was not a good thing.  I suck at ball lately and if the word quit was in my vocabulary I would.  Seems like I get psyched out and cant hit anything anymore.  My throwing is horrible and my catching isn't any better.  So why do I keep playing?  Because apparently it is all for fun.  Hmmm doesn't always sound like fun when you are put at the bottom of the batting order in hopes to get some home runs before it is your turn.

My friends are leaving me .... and yes I am being selfish when I say me.  They aren't even gone yet and tonight of all nights, it hit me!  I have dreaded this moment.  The moment when the realization that they are moving becomes very clear.  This is the part where I want to distant myself and not take part in the farewell parties.  I don't want to share my time with them.  I just want our families to continue getting together so that their move doesn't even seem real.  I miss going next door to my office to share something funny, frustrating or just to chat.  It is so quiet in the office now.  More days than not I am all alone.  I wondered today if it was even worth it.  If perhaps maybe I should move on also.  That would be irrational though and that would be the last they would want me to do.

So for tonight I let the tears flow.  I curl up in my bed and feel sorry for myself.  I try and remind myself that I am not a failure and that I will get through this.  The reality is so far away though that it seems as if tonight will last forever.

Malakai ~ isms

Ginny, you keep getting the hiccups because you talk to much.  You don't get enough air in your lungs.

Blaine has always called Malakai "Big Mac."  The other day we passed McDonald's and Malakai smiles and says "Oh!!! That is why dad calls me Big Mac!  As I dropped him off at school the next morning he say ... "Bye Mama Burger."

Nana says to Malaki "Oh Malakai Nana feels like she is getting older by the minute."  Malakai responds - "No, Nana, your not gettin old, your just getting a beard.  All you have to do is go into the bathroom and use Opa's stuff to get rid of it.

Opa asks Malakai why he is going to Jasper.  Malakai says. "to shoot bears."