A Fathers Love

I knew you the moment you became a thought. I was there when your lungs began to work and your heart beat for the very first time.

I was filled with anticipation as your features began to form and your movements became more evident. I willed you to eat and sleep knowing the best to make your way into this world. From that first moment, I knew the heart ache you would feel, and the pain you would endure but I also knew the joy you would experience and the many excitements life would bring.

I was there the moment you cried your first cry and when you took your first breath of air. I was there as the ones who waited so patiently for you, surrounded you with unimaginable amounts of love.

I waited so long for your first smile and that special gleam to show in your eyes. My heart exploded the first time you erupted with laughter and your breaking grin exposed those first two teeth. I watched in amazement as you took your first steps and reached out with so much trust to those who cared for you.


It wasn't hard to see how strong willed you sometimes were. You were so determined to do your own things in your own ways. I knew the times you would listen and the times you had to learn from experience.

It brought tears to my eyes the moment you knelt by your bed and said your prayers for the very first time. I was overjoyed to hear you sing songs in Church and praise God where ever we went.

I tried to calm your fears the first day you were off to school. I hurt when you were made fun of and when no one wanted to play with you or when your name became the laughing matter for the day.

I wanted so bad to hold you in my arms when you refused to be held, when you hurt so bad that you couldn't imagine going on. I wish you would have heard my still quiet voice when I tried so hard to stop you from hurting yourself further. I stood right beside you even though I was the last person you wanted to think of. I was there, everywhere, waiting for you to notice me.

I stayed, I waited, I wept, with you and for you. I watched as everyone who cared so deeply for you begged, pleaded and prayed for you to find your way. I knew that some day you would return.

I was filled with such joy when you once again understood my love for you. When you understood it was not intended for you hurt so deeply. We all wept for joy the day you closed your eyes and lifted your praises once again.

I saw the miraculous plan for your life unfolding as you waited for your true love to join you at the alter. I understood the joy building inside as you began your life together. I was there when when the family you always wanted just wasn't there or when you just couldn't see eye to eye, I was there when you shared the excitement and anticipation that you waited so long for as you found out your own child was on it's way. I was there when you shouted for joy and ran out of the room showing your new bundle of life in your arms. I was there ... I have been there the whole time.

I made all the delicate, inner parts of Your body I knit you together in your mother's womb. I loved you the moment you became a thought.





By ~ Tammy Anderson

Good Newz

These last few weeks have been absolutely CRAZY!!! I have seriously stretched myself the farthest I have yet. It all started with offering to help build a float for VBS. I offered our help and our ideas, thinking we would only play a small part and not end up being the main designers. Later that week, I walked into a Tupperware party much to late and felt bad so I ended up booking a party. A few days after that I felt bad for my niece because she was graduating and they are broke as usual. I hated the fact that this was her big day and they couldn't afford to take her out so I offered to throw a graduation BBQ. Oh and at the same time we had to do a bottle drive for the Amazing Challenge and plant the garden. All of which were taking place in the same week. Somewhere during this hectic week I realized that I booked Malakai's appointment with the Homeopathic Doctor the same time as he was gone to summer camp. Thank goodness they got us in on a cancellation. But guess when the day was ..... Yep, the same week as the Tupperware party, the float prep, the bottle drive, the grad BBQ and the parade.

Somehow we survived and guess what .... Good News!!! To our surprise, Malakai has a severe Copper deficiency. Apparently this medicine he is now taking will bring his Copper level up, which will result in a much happier Malakai. I pray this works.

At the same time I laugh because with my last post I couldn't think of anything funny that Keegan had said lately but after a long week and weekend he finally had time on his zoo tycoon. As Blaine and I were watching a movie last night he comes running into the living room. "I got Good News" he exclaims. "What?" we ask. I thought maybe he had remembered to tell us something that he forgot. "The Zoo returned my camels that they took from me." When it comes to Keegan animals and insects are always good news.

Kids say the darndest things.

Here are some funny things the kids have said in the last few months.


Malakai ~

To the kindergarten teacher of all things - "Can I mate when I am 18"? I am hoping that he meant date.

"I didn't take my mouth guard out, it just crawled out of my mouth."

Keegan "hey dad, Buffalo are extinct aren't they"? Malakai "Oh yah, they sure do stink."

Ginny ~ As she is eating pop rock Candy eggs she leans real close to Blaine and says..." Hey dad, listen to my ear, you can hear the popping.

"Mommy, if you weren't married and you were a boy, or I was I boy, I would marry you .... cause your a great parent." :)

Keegan ~
Well, off the top of my head, I can't think of anything bizarre that he has said lately. Maybe he is just growing up too fast. I will keep my ears pealed though.