Three twelve hour shifts in a row. Nothing makes getting up at 4:30 an easier. The scenery sure helps though.
I snapped a picture of the sunrise on my way to work today. A beautiful golden field with red barns and rolling hills. The flaming red sky behind. The picture didn't do it justice at all. It made me think of heaven ... Perhaps the reason heaven is left to our imagination is because a picture wouldn't do it justice.
As I rounded the corner with the sunrise in front of me, I glanced in my rearview mirror and noticed a rainbow behind me. A rare beauty to see at once.
After transferring an individual today I was disheartened to see how a nurse could be so uncaring. Soon after, I ran into the man who encouraged me to follow my dreams a year and a half ago when I travelled with my own father in the back of an ambulance on his way for tests. Dan reminded me that some nurses may be callous and uncaring but I chose this job to be those individuals exact opposite. I chose to be the light to those who need it the most.
Jun 2, 2015
One more thing to LOVE
Six years ago ... My first born turned 9 years old and I was taking the biggest leap of my life. My baby wasn't even in Kindergarten and I was no longer going to be his daily playmate. My life as a stay at home mom was ending and for the first time in my life I was embarking on an actual CAREER! Back then ... My world was small. I was excited with serving as a church secretary, being the go to person, the voice on the other end of the phone. I had no experience at all, yet by the grace of God I was given an opportunity. Overnight I became a book keeper, and a secretary, and I loved it!
Fast forward to six years later and as I reflect back to what I have accomplished, what I have achieved, and what I have become, I can't help but smile. Had someone told me then that in two years I would be jumping into a farm truck and driving to Lesser Slave Lake to serve others and stay in a hotel by myself I would have shook my head and said "Heck No!" The day I volunteered to help Samaritans Purse I was filled with uncertainty and fear but the people I met, the time I spent and the things I did made me love it! If you had told me that eventually I would stand by my husbands side on a volunteer fire department (running into a house fire instead of going out) I would have laughed at you. I will always remember the thrill I got when that pager went off. The house so hot that the coffee on the table was bubbling, and holding the hand of a man that was seriously broken in pieces. The good and the bad ... I loved it. If someone would have told me that in just 4 short years I would be saying goodbye to my mom, and then my dad ... I would have pulled the covers over my head and refused to let another day go by. Yet, by grace again, I made it through. I cherished the moments I spent with both of them as I cared for them, curled up in the hospital bed watching tv with them, or reading to them. Those were tough moments but I loved them. Now, had you, or anyone I know told me all of this, and then told me that I would become an EMR and work for the city of Edmonton. I would have asked an E - M what?
Like I said, my world was small. It didn't include logistic rooms, fire trucks, hoses, and blood. To me those things were impossible. Fortunately my plans are not up to me. Of course I could stay as an admin assistant until I retire. Being safe, working at a desk, within driving distance to my kids when they need me, being home each week night to have supper with my family. If I did though ... I wouldn't love it. The day I chose to follow God is the day I chose to follow his plan for my life. Its not easy and its not like I have a crystal ball, knowing which path to take and when to just sit idle. Its the people that have been put in my life, the ones that show me grace when I fail, the ones that listen when I struggle, the ones that hold me dear to their heart, lifting me up when I am weak. Its the people that I have worked with along that way that have inspired me, taught me, helped me, and encouraged me. Its the events that happen ... All this is a plan, my plan that I have no clue about, but that I trust I am not alone in.
So, as I take the pictures off my wall, as I strip the name plate off my door, and as I close the door to everything familiar and what once was ... I step into a new world ... A much larger one, with new beginnings, new fears, new unknowns. I am scared! I will fail! I will succeed! I am excited, and I LOVE IT!!!
I believe we get more than just one thing to love, and one day something will click and you will know you found it. I have to believe that.
Fast forward to six years later and as I reflect back to what I have accomplished, what I have achieved, and what I have become, I can't help but smile. Had someone told me then that in two years I would be jumping into a farm truck and driving to Lesser Slave Lake to serve others and stay in a hotel by myself I would have shook my head and said "Heck No!" The day I volunteered to help Samaritans Purse I was filled with uncertainty and fear but the people I met, the time I spent and the things I did made me love it! If you had told me that eventually I would stand by my husbands side on a volunteer fire department (running into a house fire instead of going out) I would have laughed at you. I will always remember the thrill I got when that pager went off. The house so hot that the coffee on the table was bubbling, and holding the hand of a man that was seriously broken in pieces. The good and the bad ... I loved it. If someone would have told me that in just 4 short years I would be saying goodbye to my mom, and then my dad ... I would have pulled the covers over my head and refused to let another day go by. Yet, by grace again, I made it through. I cherished the moments I spent with both of them as I cared for them, curled up in the hospital bed watching tv with them, or reading to them. Those were tough moments but I loved them. Now, had you, or anyone I know told me all of this, and then told me that I would become an EMR and work for the city of Edmonton. I would have asked an E - M what?
Like I said, my world was small. It didn't include logistic rooms, fire trucks, hoses, and blood. To me those things were impossible. Fortunately my plans are not up to me. Of course I could stay as an admin assistant until I retire. Being safe, working at a desk, within driving distance to my kids when they need me, being home each week night to have supper with my family. If I did though ... I wouldn't love it. The day I chose to follow God is the day I chose to follow his plan for my life. Its not easy and its not like I have a crystal ball, knowing which path to take and when to just sit idle. Its the people that have been put in my life, the ones that show me grace when I fail, the ones that listen when I struggle, the ones that hold me dear to their heart, lifting me up when I am weak. Its the people that I have worked with along that way that have inspired me, taught me, helped me, and encouraged me. Its the events that happen ... All this is a plan, my plan that I have no clue about, but that I trust I am not alone in.
So, as I take the pictures off my wall, as I strip the name plate off my door, and as I close the door to everything familiar and what once was ... I step into a new world ... A much larger one, with new beginnings, new fears, new unknowns. I am scared! I will fail! I will succeed! I am excited, and I LOVE IT!!!
I believe we get more than just one thing to love, and one day something will click and you will know you found it. I have to believe that.
Feb 3, 2015
Today I am flying!!!
Those who know me well, know that in the last two years I have cried more tears than I have in my entire 37 years. I have pushed myself beyond limits that I didn't even know existed. I have faced many fears, and have changed entirely. I have laughed so hard that I couldn't catch my breath, and I have hurt so bad that I have felt as though someone were ripping my heart out.
All these emotions and roller coasters have left scars on my general appearance and my health but on the inside they have made me stronger. I have had some amazing friends take my hand and quite literally hold me up when I just couldn't go any further but in it all I have learned that when the ones you care most about are gone forever, God will always remain and he is there to pick up the pieces. He knows far more about me than I will ever understand. He brought those friends into my life when I needed them the most.
I couldn't have done it without them. So many times I wanted to give up, so many times I had no faith in myself but each and every time God was working through someone cheering me on, giving me the strength I needed, telling me I could do it.
The last three years have been an uphill battle, one right after the other. I know the battle is still going on but today with the biggest achievement of my EMR Provincial marks coming in, I am flying.
All these emotions and roller coasters have left scars on my general appearance and my health but on the inside they have made me stronger. I have had some amazing friends take my hand and quite literally hold me up when I just couldn't go any further but in it all I have learned that when the ones you care most about are gone forever, God will always remain and he is there to pick up the pieces. He knows far more about me than I will ever understand. He brought those friends into my life when I needed them the most.
I couldn't have done it without them. So many times I wanted to give up, so many times I had no faith in myself but each and every time God was working through someone cheering me on, giving me the strength I needed, telling me I could do it.
The last three years have been an uphill battle, one right after the other. I know the battle is still going on but today with the biggest achievement of my EMR Provincial marks coming in, I am flying.
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