Jan 3, 2012

A small reminder

Months ago I was off to Slave Lake in my nephews 'farm truck'.  As I winded that long stretch of burnt remains of what once was a forest I literally had no idea of what was in store for me.  I had gone under the assumption that I was going to be going through the remains of peoples basements, hunting for valuables.  What I was thrown into was nothing of the sort.

I was tossed into the lions den as I entered the most chaotic room ever.  The phones were ringing, people were shouting orders, and drawing up plans on huge sticky notes hung on the wall.  I was soon put to work entering data.  when my first day/night was done I had put in a 14 hours shift.  I had no idea that my body was even capable of such a thing.  The hardest part was knowing that I had to do it all over again the next day.

As I went to bed that first night I set my alarm for 6:40am.  Ever since that morning I have never changed that alarm on my phone.  Every morning when it normally goes off I am usually rushing about doing laundry, packing lunches, rushing kids.  This morning however with no kids around, I heard my alarm.  As I rushed over and checked why my phone was going off, a flood of anxiousness hit me.

I remembered the first feeling I got when that alarm went off.  Today of all days that feeling is still there.  I was hit with a rush of being used in such a unique way, a rush of fear, uncertainty, loneliness, excitement and a rush of Joy.  Ironically the first time I have really clued into that alarm since Slave Lake is today, the day I receive my pager and get recognized as a volunteer firefighter.

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